It is FINALLY residency match week; wow, I never thought I would get to say that! 4 years ago when Jake embarked on his medical school journey, it felt like the end would never actually get here. But now, here we are just days until Match Day and about 2 months until graduation. We find out this afternoon IF he matched **EDIT: We Matched** and on Friday we find out where. To be honest, ever since Jake submitted his rank list, I have been struggling with anxiety. I am the type of person who HATES surprises. I remember one Christmas, Jake was wrapping my presents in a different room and told me to stay in the living room so I didn’t see my presents; not even a minute later, he caught me peeking in! I cannot stand knowing there is a huge decision about our lives that is already made yet I have to wait soooo long to find out. Rank lists were due about 3 weeks ago, so these past 3 weeks I have been on edge. Match determines where we will live for the next 4 years and the program/specialty will impact Jake’s whole career as a physician. Thankfully, God has given me some much needed peace recently about match. I can’t wait to share my testimony with y’all.
My Match Day Anxiety
Shortness of breath, a feeling of a lump in my throat, a feeling of helplessness and a panicked feeling. These are a few symptoms I have been experiencing daily since Jake submitted his rank list (per soon-to-be-doctor Jake, these are symptoms of a panic attack superimposed on top of underlying anxiety). I am not typically an anxious person, so this has been very hard on me. I had been finding myself checking my calendar non-stop to see how many days until match. Jake has told me numerous times that this is out of my control and I need to just relax. He said otherwise I will make myself miserable, which I definitely did. I had been praying a lot and asking, “Lord please help me to not be anxious and please match us where we are SUPPOSED to be.” For some reason, I had a gut feeling I would get peace around 2 weeks from match.
How God Gave Me Peace
You may have seen me share this on my Instagram stories, but two weekends ago I was trying to make a banner on my Cricut machine (craft cutting machine) for a match photo shoot. The Cricut didn’t work. The screen was just frozen. We watched countless YouTube videos and did tons of research to fix it, but nothing worked. I was so upset because it ruined my plan (what a first-world problem that I am embarrassed to share now). I thought, of course this would happen right now because I was so excited for the shoot. It was very important to me. As I mentioned above I’ve been so on edge lately because of match. I told Jake to forget the photo shoot.
The next morning, I texted my blogger friend who would be taking our photos (The Finishing Touch OKC Blog). She said, “no worries, I don’t have any plans today. Let’s delay the shoot.” I went to Hobby Lobby right after they opened and bought two full bags of stuff for my plan B. On the way home I was stopped at a stoplight and realized this plan B was so much better than my plan A. I would be able to reuse one of the things I bought and it was too windy for a banner anyways (the wind was insane that day).
I had a moment where I felt God speaking to me. I didn’t literally hear a voice, but I’ve never had a feeling like that before. It was amazing! I have always been a Christian, but never had a defining moment in my life like this. God told me “I am in control. It may not go as you plan. My plan is better than yours.” Wow! I told y’all he is good. Needless to say I cried at the stop light. In this moment I knew everything would go as God planned. This gave me the peace I was looking for.
The shoot went better than I could imagine. The sign ended up better than planned and the sun moved just in time for us to have perfect lighting. Can’t wait to share this shoot with y’all.
I shared this story with my medical school/doctor wife Facebook group and had so many ladies reach out and tell me their testimonies of their Match Day results. I am really at peace and so excited for this next chapter. Wherever we end up, I am faithful that it is for a reason.
I am beyond excited to share the Match Day results with y’all when we find out. I have no clue when I will post it, but the news will go live on my blog first before I share it anywhere else! Make sure to subscribe here so you don’t miss it.
Easter is around the corner. Originally I shot this look for an Easter post, but I was so excited to share what is on my heart.
P.S. If you want to learn more about Match Day/the match process, Jake shared a post here.
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Praying for you both this week! I know how crazy and stressful this process is and I am confident it will all work out for you! I’ve admired your honesty and strength through the med school process. It’s not an easy thing to get through but I know you have made the most of it!
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Your prayers mean the world to us, Taylor. Thank you for the kind words. I feel so blessed we have connected
Keeping my finger crossed for you, it’s amazing how God plans work. Keeping you in my prayers
Thank you so much, Paula! I sooo appreciate the kind words and prayers. Amen! God is good.
Your lacy blue dress is beautiful. Can be worn for many occasions. To young for me but my daughter would look wonderful wear something like this.
Thank you so much 💕
Your story is inspiring. “Ask and you shall receive” . Thank you for sharing this wonderful moment.
Thank you so much! It was a moment I will never forget
I’m on pins and needles for you! Can’t even imagine the anticipation you are feeling.
Ahhhh yes I am so ready to know.
I love you style, and that dress.
Thank you so much 🙂
All of your followers are holding their collective breath in anticipation of your match news! Your dress is darling. I love that shade of blue on you.
Awww thank you so much.
Good luck and prayers going out that it all goes exactly like it’s supposed to 🙂 Love that color on you too!
Thank you so much for the kind words and prayers.
lovely electric blue dress! love how u paired it with nude heels! so chic
Thank you so much. It’s one of my fav colors.
You two have been in my thoughts! I can’t wait to see where you end up. And yes! I always feel as though wherever we end up, it is for a reason. There is a bigger and better plan than anything we could control. It’s strange how at peace you feel after accepting this. 🙂 You look so lovely too, Courtney!
All the best as you wait to hear where you go next!
You’re so sweet, Lindsey! I cannot wait to announce it. Yes I absolutely agree with that.
I love how this is all becoming a part of your testimony as a Christian! You will be able to share wisdom with so many other ladies in your shoes (now and in the future!). I know you guys will end up where you’re meant to be and I can’t wait to find out!!
katherine | http://www.oneswainkycouple.com
Awww, Katherine this made me cry. Such an important part of my life I’ll never forget. God is good!
Hi Courtney, I know God will guide you both in the next phase of your lives wherever that may be. I am excited to hear! I love that dress on you❤ It looks so soft and feminine and the length is perfect. Have a great day, hugs, Terri xo.
THANK YOU SO MUCH, TERRI! Cannot wait to share the news. God is so good!