It is FINALLY residency match week; wow, I never thought I would get to say that! 4 years ago when Jake embarked on his medical school journey, it felt like the end would never actually get here. But now, here we are just days until Match Day and about 2 months until graduation. We find out this afternoon IF he matched **EDIT: We Matched** and on Friday we find out where. To be honest, ever since Jake submitted his rank list, I have been struggling with anxiety. I am the type of person who HATES surprises. I remember one Christmas, Jake was wrapping my presents in a different room and told me to stay in the living room so I didn’t see my presents; not even a minute later, he caught me peeking in! I cannot stand knowing there is a huge decision about our lives that is already made yet I have to wait soooo long to find out. Rank lists were due about 3 weeks ago, so these past 3 weeks I have been on edge. Match determines where we will live for the next 4 years and the program/specialty will impact Jake’s whole career as a physician. Thankfully, God has given me some much needed peace recently about match. I can’t wait to share my testimony with y’all.
My Match Day Anxiety
Shortness of breath, a feeling of a lump in my throat, a feeling of helplessness and a panicked feeling. These are a few symptoms I have been experiencing daily since Jake submitted his rank list (per soon-to-be-doctor Jake, these are symptoms of a panic attack superimposed on top of underlying anxiety). I am not typically an anxious person, so this has been very hard on me. I had been finding myself checking my calendar non-stop to see how many days until match. Jake has told me numerous times that this is out of my control and I need to just relax. He said otherwise I will make myself miserable, which I definitely did. I had been praying a lot and asking, “Lord please help me to not be anxious and please match us where we are SUPPOSED to be.” For some reason, I had a gut feeling I would get peace around 2 weeks from match.
How God Gave Me Peace
You may have seen me share this on my Instagram stories, but two weekends ago I was trying to make a banner on my Cricut machine (craft cutting machine) for a match photo shoot. The Cricut didn’t work. The screen was just frozen. We watched countless YouTube videos and did tons of research to fix it, but nothing worked. I was so upset because it ruined my plan (what a first-world problem that I am embarrassed to share now). I thought, of course this would happen right now because I was so excited for the shoot. It was very important to me. As I mentioned above I’ve been so on edge lately because of match. I told Jake to forget the photo shoot.
The next morning, I texted my blogger friend who would be taking our photos (The Finishing Touch OKC Blog). She said, “no worries, I don’t have any plans today. Let’s delay the shoot.” I went to Hobby Lobby right after they opened and bought two full bags of stuff for my plan B. On the way home I was stopped at a stoplight and realized this plan B was so much better than my plan A. I would be able to reuse one of the things I bought and it was too windy for a banner anyways (the wind was insane that day).
I had a moment where I felt God speaking to me. I didn’t literally hear a voice, but I’ve never had a feeling like that before. It was amazing! I have always been a Christian, but never had a defining moment in my life like this. God told me “I am in control. It may not go as you plan. My plan is better than yours.” Wow! I told y’all he is good. Needless to say I cried at the stop light. In this moment I knew everything would go as God planned. This gave me the peace I was looking for.
The shoot went better than I could imagine. The sign ended up better than planned and the sun moved just in time for us to have perfect lighting. Can’t wait to share this shoot with y’all.
I shared this story with my medical school/doctor wife Facebook group and had so many ladies reach out and tell me their testimonies of their Match Day results. I am really at peace and so excited for this next chapter. Wherever we end up, I am faithful that it is for a reason.
I am beyond excited to share the Match Day results with y’all when we find out. I have no clue when I will post it, but the news will go live on my blog first before I share it anywhere else! Make sure to subscribe here so you don’t miss it.
Easter is around the corner. Originally I shot this look for an Easter post, but I was so excited to share what is on my heart.
P.S. If you want to learn more about Match Day/the match process, Jake shared a post here.