Soon after Scarlett was born, a mama-to-be asked me how I found motherhood. It made me really think and realize motherhood found me. To be 100% honest I always knew I wanted to be a mom, but I was also terrified I wouldn’t know what to do. I hadn’t been around newborns much, so I was scared I wouldn’t know how to be a mom. Jake and I took a “newborns 101” class, but it was virtual due to COVID. We practiced with a doll, but we had never changed a dirty diaper on a real baby. We learned how to do that in the hospital. I’ll never forget after Scarlett was born, I sent Jake to go pick up sushi for my first meal after labor. I was terrified to be alone and was praying he would be quick. Within just a day, that fear quickly went away. I feel like motherhood/parenthood is a natural thing that just happens and the best advice I’ve ever been given was “God made you the perfect mama for Scarlett.”
The moment I met Scarlett was one I will never forget. As soon as the doctor handed her to me, she hugged me and it was the most beautiful moment I’ve ever experienced. I exclusively breastfeed (I’ll share more about my journey one day soon), but I’ll never forget how hard it was at first and I felt like I had no clue what I was doing. Scarlett grabbed my hand and in that moment I knew it would be okay. When I look into her eyes I see God’s grace in her tiny face. Motherhood puts things in perspective and has reminded me to not sweat the small stuff. It’s the hardest, but most rewarding, job I’ve ever had. I am on call 24/7 with her, but I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Other mamas have also been critical in helping me find motherhood. Us mamas are in it together and have to stick together. Being a mom is a bond that I can’t describe. Motherhood has been such an amazing journey; I’ve reunited with old friends through motherhood and it’s bonded us again over our babies. We’re always looking out for each other and sharing what works for us.
Motherhood is hard, but when Scarlett smiles it melts my heart. Every day is truly getting better and God knew I needed her. Scarlett is now 3 months old and I don’t know where the time has gone.
About Our Outfits:
Scarlett is actually wearing one of my Feltman Brothers dresses from my childhood. It’s amazing how well it’s held up. Jake helped us capture these precious photos. I’m wearing a Chicwish dress and absolutely love this one. I’m wearing a small and it was a little tight in my chest, but still worked. I wore pink so much during my pregnancy and am loving blue now. This dress was perfect for our little family picnic photoshoot and would be great at the beach too. It gives me Love Shack Fancy vibes. Although we’re not really going anywhere, I’m finding it important to still get dressed up and document every precious moment.